Tuesday, January 29, 2013

I really AM posting a lot. but...

You want to know why I don't post here anymore? 

In all honesty, I am not a naturally happy person. Oh, I have happy times, don't get me wrong, I am actually one to laugh a lot and I've always had a wicked sense of humor, but my natural default tends toward depressed, or anxious, or negative. I don't know why exactly, I've been like this as long as I can remember, and I will be the first person to admit that it sucks. 

I mean, how not-fun is that? To be around a down in the dumps person? To hear gripes and worries and complaints? It isn't fun for anyone...including me! So yeah, here's what happens with this blog. I come here, I write a super-long post about something or another (usually political or religion based) and then I hit 'save post' instead of 'publish' because I don't want to be that blog. The Debbie-downer blog. The 'I have yet another issue to flesh out here' blog. The 'why can't she ever make progress?' blog.

The truth is, I have a whole lot rumbling around my brain these days and no outlet for any of it. I am home by myself all day and when my husband and daughter get home we are eating dinner, doing homework, etc. so it all stays up there in my brain. And frankly, I have a headache. 

So. Maybe I will start hitting publish. I don't know. I guess I just wanted to warn you that it might be coming. Beware. ;-)