Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Not going great...

I can't seem to get my mojo back after I went off the rails a week and a half ago. It is so frustrating that I was in such a zone that it was actually easy to stay under my calorie allowance, and now it feels impossible to even come even TRY to come close. I am not making any excuses, although I do have PMS which I use as an excuse in the moment I'm about to eat Dorito's or what-have-you. I am just feeling so hungry all of the time, and giving in to muchies is so satisfying, isn't it?

The workouts have also stopped completely. I am sooooo exhausted so I don't workout, yet I'm probably exhausted because I'm not working out. The cycle of lazy is a tough one to break out of for me! Honestly though, my insomnia has been brutal lately and I also use that as an excuse when I'm sitting on the sofa instead of walking on the treadmill. Yesterday I rationalized that going up and down stairs for laundry all day was enough of a workout. The day before I rationalized my workout was rearranging the furniture. I mean honestly, I could rationalize anything at this point. 

I hate when I'm being weak and I know I'm being weak but I don't really do anything to stop it. Being weak is easier, to be honest. 

But I so want to be looking and feeling better by Christmas this year so if that has any chance of happening I have to get a serious grip on myself, and soon. Today CAN be better, if I'd only try a bit harder. I'll let you know how that goes. ;-)

1 comment:

  1. Ah yes, the cycle of exhaustion is hard to beat. I know in my head that I have more energy when I've been working out, but you have to START working out when you are still dragging.... It's tough. The same goes for mood and sleep, I think. It all improves with exercise, but when you're just getting started and you're feeling weak, blue and sleep-deprived, who feels like exercising then??!

    What I've found though is that if I can just manage to get myself on the treadmill... that's half the battle. If you can get on there and just walk a bit. Then a little more tomorrow. And pretty soon you're upping the speed and staying on for longer periods of time. The first step is always the hardest. (And yet we keep making ourselves start over again and again... sticking with something is so much easier than re-starting!)