My husband has some gift certificates for two free meals at a local breakfast restaurant, and since Gabriella had an orthodontist appointment at 10:30 this morning, we thought it'd be a great idea to have a nice breakfast on the way.
Then I started to think. Would they have something for me to eat on the menu that won't add yet another messed up meal for me? I decided to look and see if their menu was online. It was.
I did find a meal that would be acceptable (scrambled eggs, mixed fresh fruit, whole grain english muffin) BUT I also found so many meals I'd rather have! Chorizo omelet. Sausage, egg, and cheese skillet. Pecan waffles. (That's the one that ended up putting me right over the edge!)
I realized that I'm not feeling as strong now as I did a couple of weeks ago, and I honestly couldn't trust myself right now to make the correct choices. So....we decided to postpone the breakfast date until I meet my goal weight, or until I'm feeling stronger again. Hubby took Gabby to breakfast at McDonalds, and I just stayed at home, because frankly, McDonalds breakfast is one of my favorite things in the world! :-)
It's hard because I'm finding myself rearranging my entire life around this diet. I know it isn't forever, but at the same time it kinda is, because I never want to get this big again. I need this to seriously be a LIFE CHANGE, and that means being strong enough to make the tough choices....at least most of the time!
Side note: I haven't weighed myself since Saturday morning showed no weight loss. I'm just scared of what I'll see there. I was wanting to stop weighing in all the time, so I guess that is something good that came out of last week!