Is there anyone still out there?? So quiet here these days!
So, I have been on my period this week and pretty much breaking every diet rule I have. Barely working out and I even had a couple of serious binges...something that hasn't been one of my major problems during the last few months. I was fully aware of what I was doing...but I did it anyway.
I'm beyond stressed about school issues this week and I have NO control over fixing the cause of the stress at this point. Of course, it comes out in my eating. I WANT chips. No one can stop me from eating the chips. I am the one in control (or lack thereof, ironically) of each chip finding its way to my mouth. So, I act like a five year old and eat simply because I can.
Spite...toward what I'm not sure. My life? Circumstances? Myself? Who knows.
Do you understand? Not sure I do myself. Sigh. How incredibly stupid.
My weight this morning (one day before weigh-in) is up more than TWO pounds. Argh. I get so close to my goal and then self-sabotage. Big surprise.
Yeah, I'm pretty whiny these days. No wonder no one is commenting! I'm sorry you guys, I'm just one big ball of nerves and I can't seem to snap out of it! Weigh in tomorrow...not looking forward to recording a gain but it's too late for regrets, it is what it is.